One:
On Friday evening, I ran three miles. I felt really good, and after M told me that all hurts subside after a while, I kept going with little discomfort. It was hot and still, so the bugs were in my eyes, nose and ears (I keep my mouth shut to inhale). I have a hillside next to my track that is covered with pennyroyal. After a brilliant deduction (my wool wash has a variety that is pennyroyal and repels bugs, maybe I can repel these gnats!), I grabbed a sprig, stuck it behind my ear, and voila! The bugs did not bother me. I might be on to something here–pennyroyal headbands for runners?
My daughter, M is running a 50k today, and so I’m sending her (and D, her running partner) uplifting thoughts of strength endurance, and most importantly, enjoyment. I do not aspire to such lofty (and insane!) goals, but am supportive of whatever my children aspire to.
Two:
There is nothing in the world that tries my patience more than my computer/crappy dial up service situation. This morning, Sunday, at 7:30, I decided to hit my book clubs and submit my declinations. It’s been about three weeks, and I don’t want to have to return any. So, and this is NOT exaggeration, the first one (of six) took no less than a half hour. I also wanted to check my email, but after waiting 8 minutes for the sign-in page to load (never did come up), I quit.
I’m not steaming or anything, and I was able to complete the first one breathing myself through it, (peed a couple times, got more coffee),but I gave up after that and just went off-line.
John was on earlier and had no trouble. I know that whatever the problem is, I perpetuate it and attract it to myself. I sit down, thinking, “this will take forever” or “I hate this f-ing dial up”.
J will sit down with me later, and find that now it works, or I was doing such and such, but I know for sure that if I sat down at the computer feeling grateful that I have the knowledge to use it, and that I have it at all, and that the things I can do because of it are amazing, it would all go in a different direction. I am starting to become so aware of the influence (even power) I have on my situations, and THAT all situations I encounter ARE effects of the vibrations that I emit.
Here is an element of this for skeptical people who don’t think we participate in creation with each and every thought: Even if it doesn’t change the actual circumstance, being grateful adjusts my emotional presence and makes me nicer to be around. That makes everyone in close proximity happier, or at least not susceptible to the otherwise negative vibe. Well, I guess that IS changing it. Be blessed.
madeline said,
August 26, 2007 at 11:15 pm
We’re alive! We finished (8 hours, 24 minutes).
It was grueling and very satisfying.
And your last paragraph here is the way in which *I* (a skeptic you speak of) can apply the change. Yes. Good stuff.