Detachment

This is about Ego vs Higher Self.

There are times when I let myself be guided to say or do something that I wouldn’t consciously choose from my ego center.  What happens next is really interesting.  Spirit centered choices never generate any negativity, but my ego is ridiculously quick to take credit!  It wants to be noticed and even rewarded for those choices/decisions.

On the other hand, ego is also notorious for making bad choices and then denying them, justifying them, defending them, even projecting them onto others.

Noticing that this happens is relatively easy when I’m not actually doing either, and seriously difficult when involved.  Objectivity and emotional involvement are mutually exclusive(*), but I know that if I’m emotionally involved, it’s Ego (which is most powerful when emoting).

I’m practicing to breathe first before talking, which is, well…(Leo, here!)  But getting easier with practice.

At the same time, I try to notice that other participants, if also emotional, are operating on “ego auto pilot”, and cannot be more objective, either.  Breathe.

(*It could be said that actual objectivity is ineffable)

Philosophy is Back

Thoughts and actions have a cyclic nature, because of the lessons we don’t get.  And the lessons always underscore the gap between what we want/expect to happen (because of our thoughts and resulting actions) and what ultimately manifests.  It is a dilema we continuously try to avoid but can’t:  the dilema itself contains the lesson!!

My world is reflecting me (my thoughts, attitudes, intentions, judgments, etc.) back to me.  It is the condition I have created while focussing on the conditions, as it were, and happiness, fulfillment, enlightenment are not there.  The world (and anything/everything in it) cannot make us happy or fulfilled.

The things we resist the most are the very things that occur often, and here’s why:  Avoiding (resisting, fighting against) undesirable situations gives them energy and perpetuates them.  But more importantly, they are not there for us to avoid or even find solutions.  They are there for us to learn about ourselves and ultimately improve/progress toward better understanding of Who We Really Are.

If there is a situation in your life that continues to irritate you over and over, take the time to search your heart for a different meaning, an application to positive growth.  Don’t blame others for how you feel about it, because you choose your feelings, and only you can make you feel differently.

Try to remember that feeling bad (angry, jealous, insecure) only attracts more opportunities for you to feel bad.  Also, whatever (or whoever) you are holding responsible did not have that intention (or anything close to it) in mind, and is worthy of the very love and forgiveness you think only you are.  Be love.

Reawakening

MUSIC:  I forgot how much fun it was to play all the time!!  Since I moved to the mountain 7 years ago, I have learned, maybe, two new songs.  (That’s not counting the church stuff).  But in the two weeks with my new guitar, I have added 4 new (old) songs to my ever fading rep.  My fingertips have regained their relative toughness (I can’t feel them when I knit!), so I have better endurance for playing longer.  I feel so grateful for this new addition, I must name her!

PROJECTS:  I ripped out a half finished tank top yesterday (I hate when it’s that far along), and I’m getting ready to rip another (different) one out today that’s even further along.  I must be in too big of a hurry to produce.  I have so much fiber and yarn right now.  Too much pressure!!  I’m afraid I won’t have used enough of it up by the time I have another op to shop again, I guess.

I’m breathing myself through it, tho, since I don’t want to just throw stuff together and have nobody want to use it.  There’s one great project I will finish presently; a hand-spun lacy linen top that I’m going to dye yellow.  And I’m working on some socks which are always a success.

OTHER:  On another note, we are rapidly approaching my favorite time of year.  Autumn on the mountain is the best!!