The time has finally come. However disgusted I have been with myself has never, ever helped. However much I’ve tried to love my fat self, that has never helped either. I’m not exactly sure what’s different, now, but I don’t miss the coffee, the butter, even the chocolate!! The foods that I’m eating taste just fine, and I’m never hungry–in fact I have a little trouble finishing the meals proposed! Only once in the past week did I not actually enjoy a meal, and I might be able to skip that one altogether!
I wasn’t going to share this, but I can’t contain myself. The feeling is right this time. It’s not a punishment, it’s a reward. Maybe for just getting to this point, maybe for letting go of the specific motivational factors (how I look, my health, my endurance, my flexibility) in deference to the process itself. Really. I do think about being smaller, but I’m not focused there as much as doing what I’m doing in the moment. Be the outcome what it may, I’m halfway through the first leg, and right on target.
On another note, I started reading Bruce Lipton’s “Biology of Belief”, a very informative study of current scientific status concerning cellular physics, genetics (the debunking of the Human Genome projects), and the effects of energy on all the microscopic processes. He will be getting into the quantum thing next, I presume. Can’t wait–I love this shit! It’s going to boil down to the idea that we control our realities with our thoughts and feelings, I just know it. (What else–the things that support my perspective/beliefs/countenance are inexorably attracted to me).
Anyway, it’s a great day–42 right now, and sunny. Also, drying outside nicely. I will hike extensively today to gather more positive energy from nature and spread my own!!
