New Leaf?

June 15, 2009 at 11:55 pm (life)

I for sure didn’t think it would happen so fast!!  But here it is:

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We bought a Caravan.  Didn’t think we’d ever do car payments again, but I never had such a low interest rate in my whole life!  It was a great price, the car is in great shape, and we feel so blessed.  Here’s the “new leaf”:  always before, our vehicle situation has been precarious,  never knew what would run, when, or for how long.  But now we are smelling like roses, and our situation is such that we’ll never have to center our plans around whether we have a car that works or not, because we will always have a car that works.

Amen.

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Down to One Car

June 14, 2009 at 12:50 pm (life, projects)

We have four vehicles.  They are all insured, have current tags and inspection stickers.  Three of them are sitting there.  Toyota truck needs an alternator, Jeep needs a leaf spring, Justy needs I’m not sure (drive chain? tranny?).

Aerostar, 1995, with over 250,000 miles, is the one that works.  The one I DON’T want to use except for road trips.  Save it, I say.  It still runs great, has the least amount of rust, the most amount of room, and gets better gas mileage than the Jeep.  Daily driving will just tear it up.

But it’s our only car right now, so we are driving it every day.

I’m sure grateful for it, it has sure come a long way with us, and it might be my favorite car I ever had!  But it’s old, like me.  Should be gentle with it, but this half-mile mountain driveway is anything but.

So we are in transition, yet again.  J is doing much research to guage consumer evals on many models.  With the possibility of having a mail route next year, we will take facility into consideration, etc.

It will be interesting to see what we end up with and when.  My travel plans are all on hold until this matter is resolved (duh).

On another front, I am weaving again.  Warped the loom last week for some Sweedish Huck Lace towels.  They aren’t looking much like the picture (on the pattern), but are lovely, and I’m enjoying the process.  Also, I finished knitting a beautiful bamboo lace shawl (for a friend’s 60th), and several more pairs of socks.

Now that I think of it, we really only need one car since I’m really busy here!!

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Oblivious

June 4, 2009 at 6:38 pm (life, philosophy)

The toothache started a snowball of painful things.  Migraine headache for a couple of days, etc.

Integrating physical pain is probably the most difficult thing for me.  I can get that whatever is hurting is a result of choices I have made.  For what purpose is where it gets murky.  I think we cause ourselves specific physical sensations to point out something NOT physical.  But the symbolism sometimes escapes me altogether.  A headache can go so many different ways symbolically.

Now, when my ears get plugged up, I believe I’m trying to tell myself to “listen” better to something or someone.  Same if my eyes itch or burn or whatever, I say “What am I not seeing?”  And whether it makes any sense or not, I can usually find something to change my mind about and grow from it.  This perspective also serves as a way to integrate whatever the discomfort is.  Accepting that a “teacher” is present (and the acceptance of the possibility of a lesson) usually  results in the pain subsiding considerably.  This is because of the change in generated energy:  going from “poor me, I hurt” to “ok, why have I brought myself here?”  There is a relaxation that happens when I stop resisting the pain and try getting to “know” it.

Once there, I can either open myself up to possibilities, or wallow in self-pity.  I’m getting better at paying attention to what I feel and why, and even sometimes being able to change how I feel to something  at least more productive.

But serious pain still kicks my ass.   Give me emotional shit any day.

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